Little Things

I have been dreading our most recent move.  From our apartment in Las Colinas to Marcus's parents' house.  No one forced me to do it - it was my idea to make the move because we needed to do something drastic with our finances after the unexpected court-involved drama we've been having for the past 6 months.  Lawyers are soooo expensive.  So much so that my mother-in-law reminded me that it wasn't too late to go to law school & become one.  I'm good Mama Briggs. 

I've been dreading it because I'm so afraid of living in other people's spaces.  Something often goes wrong with relationships when living together is involved.  And even when it doesn't, I feel like my personal creativity & growth is stifled.  Also I'm worried that it will throw off the rythm of our family growth.  I guess that could either be a good or bad thing.  As I'm writing this though, my fears sound kind of crazy. 

Anyway, I have been dreading the move, but I am so thankful that we have this option.  That they are kind enough to welcome us to their home. 

Which is why I'm so happy that I realized something tonight.  After a week of stress piling up because we didn't really plan the move well enough (I do not recommend moving trying to move with a 9 month old hanging around), my mother-in-law asked me if she could watch Isaiah so I could take a shower.  I was confused for a second, I guess because I couldn't believe that someone was offering me a moment of peace. 

And then I almost cried a little because it was the most amazing shower ever.

I realized in the shower that there are a few little things that have the power to make a place to stay really really horrible or really really awesome.  For me it is the water pressure, finding a parking space, how short the walk is from your car to your door, & sunlight. 

In the last place, we could never find a parking space, the walk varied from long to very long, there was never any sunlight, and the water pressure in the shower & the kitchen sink were so so bad.  I cringed when I experienced them. 

But when those things are just right, for me, life is beautiful.  All of the stresses of the world can exit to the background for those moments. 

When you don't have to carry your groceries across a parking lot, up 3 flights of stairs & down a long hallway.  When the sunlight streams into your room onto your baby's hair.  And when the water in the shower is just perfect.  You can relax and think, everything is going to be okay. 

(This face tends to work the same magic.)