Worried About the Next Six Weeks
Tuesday, July 6, 2010 at 11:36PM Isaiah is 6 weeks old!!!
I have the go ahead to start exercising now, and I'm super excited because I'm feeling pretty not skinny these days.
I also have the go ahead to have sex, BUT honestly I don't know if I'm ready for it. This is quite unusual for me to say, because usually my sex drive is really really high, and I thought I would just be dying by now. Six weeks is way longer than Marcus & I have ever gone without having sex. But I'm feeling pretty emotionally vulnerable. Fragile even. I think I would be so happy if we could just cuddle.
But even if I was ready, we probably wouldn't be able to find the time or the place. Because let me tell you about what's going on...
We just picked up a new client that will be using us every weekday morning for the next six weeks. We've never had anything that regular or often.
We have several dinner events this month which is unusual.
I started my last eight week term on Monday, and it appears that it will be the most difficult yet. We have been assigned teams, and I am stuck for the third time in the past two years, with the laziest asshole of a teammate.
I haven't finished posting Isaiah's birth story yet! I'm glad I posted a portion of it because I got distracted way more than I thought I would.
We have Marcus's five year old (I think I'll call him A from now on) for the month of July.
And my mom went home today. A quite sudden decision made during our recent weekend trip to Arkansas.
Last week I was imagining my days without her, nursing & playing with Isaiah, & alternating between eating, sleeping & working while he slept. I thought it would be difficult but possible. Now I'm adding a five year old to that picture.
I'm a little nervous about how we're going to handle it all.
But we must. And we will, splendidly I'm sure. I hope.
We can't have any problems with this cuteness in our house right?
Reader Comments (2)
Oh I'm sure you'll have plenty of problems - that's what kids are great at, but I know you'll handle them. Maybe not swimmingly, but you'll handle them and everything will be fine, end of story. Nerves are something aren't they? Now get laid!
We started trying to have sex again at something like 4 weeks, but it wasn't anything I would define as comfortable or enjoyable until 10. Everyone says use lots of lube, and they are saying it because it's true. Just keep applying over and over and over, and don't be afraid to speak up.
Everyone says that sex feels different after baby and it's true. It's like the landscape of my vagina has actually changed. It's weird and impossible to describe.